Yasemin Nur

Residency period: December 2019
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In Istanbul, I packed my luggage. Just the morning of the day -13th of December – that I will leave my city to Blanca Murcia Spain.

Instinctively, I grabbed a bunch of white A4 papers and my pencil case.

I took one book with that was standing by itself unread for some time.

I got it from a bookshop in the airport in Berlin. ‘The Overstory” by Richard Powers.

It has Berlin-Istanbul flight card in it.

…instructions posted from the past, memories to become predictions.

28th of May 2019, interesting. The date of open studio here in Centro Negra is 28th of December.

We were talking with Maria, I heard she said: ‘everything will be tied.” I understood. Yes, they will be at the end. Knots, spiritual ones.

Way down in the understory.

For such a long time I did not watch them dry too closely. So intensely.

Them papers-small A4 paper parts, inside the plates with the water of a plant that I boil every night in my room behind the other door.

Plants that I collect in between two doors.

I am running to the other door the studio early in the morning before they get stuck on the plate.

I felt my knots in here: by heart, earthly knots.

I don’t know how to open-release them.

But I have seen them, that is something after all.

From one to the other.

Life will not answer the reason. And meaning is too young a thing to have much power over it.

I saw Alba at the hill across while I was sitting in front of the door to the studio and reading. She looked marvelous. I waved at her she didn’t see me.

I followed her down the hill with my eyes.

The stories in the book are all about trees. As if the book is written before I read it every day – just before my eyes.

She can only laugh. “You don’t understand. You don’t understand. It’s the Alhambra.”

Italic sentences are taken from the book.